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Flowers of Flesh and Blood

by Nicole Dollanganger

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1.
Rabid 02:49
something ugly in you you also saw in me guess we're infected with the same disease well i could be your girl and you could be my baby have a habit of ruining everything we're the same, we're both rabid animals got sick heads and minds, we were both born feral like fields growing high, we're just those dark animals the sad things at night, we know no control you like to play with knives and get all cut up had a shotgun and you sawed the barrel off covered up in welts you say you like it rough well no blood for you will ever be enough you're the darkest horse that i've ever seen of all the things you fuck i'm the most empty and no blood for you will ever be enough can't bury anything without digging it up
2.
Cement 04:48
cages and cases of starving birds and dead things no longer look anything like they did when they'd been living the things you love you put into cement in order to keep them they have to be dead you think that he's yours but it's only in your head his coffin is not your arms his grave is not your bed lockets and caskets full of garbage and ashes nothing but collections of nothing you've been protecting taking baths in concrete harbor a love for things that don't exist try to set into stone but you can't he's made of bones and flesh
3.
Nebraska 03:06
he came and shot her parents both in the head dragged them outside, put the bodies in the shed collected up her things, put them in his trunk he sat her on his lap right next to his gun the prairies of nebraska soaked in blood the love made between them using his gun and the bodies stacked in rows the dead they will never know showed his caril-ann how to use a knife picked up slowly, killed with it twice shot who they could, snapped the neck of a dog stole a dead man's car and the engine stalled they executed him with her name on his lips he loved her in life just as much in death and sometimes i feel like we're heading down the same road sometimes i feel like we're just like them
4.
the first hit felt like hell but now they feel like heaven know these fists so well you bear the indents of them got a broken jaw but it feels so good you let them they beat the shit out of you and i'm left piecing you together i look into your eyes but i can't find a reflection skull fuck you cold leave you on the floor mouth full of blood but still you beg for more all busted up lips wired shut i know you less now than i did before i look into your eyes but i can't find a reflection past these fences fields stretch for miles you don't see them anymore, you don't even try
5.
like to keep me so sick just to mend me a little bit lips of sewage you know that i've gone septic and i don't want to get better no i just want to be in your arms keep in a hospital bed sigh over me, my angel of death hook me up to machines have them all breathe for me drift in saline highs cold and sterilized wrapped in wet white sheets pale and shivering and my head is getting heavy and i just want to be in your arms
6.
you're the phantom pains the ache that won't go away never had you so how did i lose you? i already felt you before i even knew you i know it's just the remnants i'm only feeling hand prints of your past aggressions i'm just playing with your shadow you're the phantom limbs a ghost hanging off of my skin i could reach out and touch you i swear but you're not really there you're the legs hurt when they aren't there at all you're the broken bones and the bleeding nose just the marks of a ghost i know you're just my phantom pains you're the ache that won't go away and we'll never be close enough to know what a waste
7.
Lividity 03:07
find no love in flesh but only weapons the ones that do the most damage there is no peace in life, but only death if i believe good wombs have borne bad sons then i have no qualms using my gun i only love the things that i can hurt taking baths in all of the bloodshed from the shots i put into your head i'll shoot and break my nose from the blow what doesn't kill me makes me wish i was dead
8.
press you in the pages of a hardcover book to dry like flowers and weeds peel your petals off and slowly pull them apart to wrap in my bed sheets to take you with me while i drift off to sleep and assemble you inside of my dreams on a soiled mattress we drift to the attic where the dust collects on your long eyelashes they open up the window and stand in the sunshine but you hide in the shadows cause the light goes right through you you're a ghost, you're a ghost, you're a ghost, you're a ghost of my mind we hide in the places where mice make their holes our skin getting cold under moth eaten clothes i feel my lips turn blue, i'd do anything to be held by you through the night the doors are all closed, we peer through key holes tucked away in a place where flowers can't grow your skin turns to dust in my hands and i'm left holding onto a pile of sand
9.
Danny 03:04
split his ribs open using my bare hands but i could not repair all of the damage built of milk and flesh so meek and mild but i know if he'd lived he'd have grown to be wild they broke him and they beat him and break he did they took him from me, my baby and break he did his skin went white as chalk, his limbs turned soft and limp i cradled him through those moments of weakness and watched him drift between the worlds of living and dead until he sunk down into the pavement they broke him and they beat him and break he did they took him from me, my baby and break he did and he laid there for days in the cold and the wind but i could not breathe life back in i tried to fill up his lungs with the air from my own but he did not wake up again no he didn't split his ribs open using my bare hands but i could not repair all of the damage
10.
legs and limbs and lips all open with your fingertips you make holes in me and little slits you use as mouths for you to kiss close my plastic eyelids you say this is the love we all hope to find so don't cry, don't worry you're supposed to bleed the first time the books, sad songs, and cinemas they all lied lied lied why didn't anyone tell me love is like being fucked with a knife? with the blade on a butterfly i'll make a hole in you i will kiss it and stick my tongue in it hard enough for you to feel it in your stomach i'll fist it with knuckles full of rings give you back the love you said was mine so don't cry, don't worry you're supposed to bleed the first time

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all recorded in my bedroom/bathroom

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released November 25, 2012

all songs written & composed by nicole dollanganger

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